I had the time... of my life

This is going to be a response to my best friend's livejournal entry (Not quite sure if I'm allowed to link to it). I planned on writing this a while ago, never gotten around to do it, so here it is. She reminded me of it. ;)

I want to thank my best friends for being there for me. This sounds cliche, easy to say or whatever but it has never felt so right before, so right to say it. For sure, I had real friends before you but they either lived on another continent or in another part of Germany or were never there when I needed them the most. All the people I liked to call my friends, they only pushed me around, they were never interested in my real self. They were disappointed in me for not putting my trust in them while they were talking behind my back about me. They let it happen, that I got forced into another skin, they let others kill me. Without doing anything, and even turning their backs on me when their torture turned me into wreck. I was so scared, so insecure about myself when I came to the new school. I remember that I had hopes to find friends. I've never been an unsocial person. I've always had friends but sadly never real ones. My best friend in kindergarten "abandoned" me for not being a boy, in Elementary School I had to like the stuff the girls liked in order to have friends. In High School I finally found friends but after that "incident" between 5th and 6th grade, I had changed to much, I was so quiet. I isolated myself from the others, and no one asked what was wrong.
So I hoped that with the new school, everything would get better for me. And it did. Redoing the school year was the right decision because I found my best friends. Friends who do care about me. Friends who allow me to be me. Friends who helped me to discover what I am like. Friends who have my backs, and I couldn't be happier with them. Even though, this year doesn't end the way I wanted it to, it's been a great year so far! I had the time of my life, a summer I will keep as a memory. We've done so many things that I've always wanted to do with my friends and I finally found people who seem to share it with me.
You guys taught me so much. I used to be a few steps ahead, always, only to be cool for others. Being always a few steps ahead can be very exhausting and that's what happened to me. So, therefore, I am glad that there's no need to be it for you. Even if I don't know about anything I actually should know; it's okay. When I say something wrong; it's okay. And when it feels okay to be wrong sometimes. You can't always be right and real friends don't make a big deal out of it. It's like a comfort seat, this friendship. You can rest some and still be part of it, still not losing track.

And all I wanted to say is that I love you for being there, for being close, for being my friends! I've never had real best friends who live in my area and I am so glad to have you guys! You mean so much to me!
I guess you know who you are... ;)