Ernie got wasted

*glances over to table on which Braddles and Chesta are lying* Brad's face looks so off ><

Where's my self-confidence? It's gone again. And left me with my doubts. I'm in such a conflict right now, it just hurts.

Besides, my headaches are getting worse. I should really go to bed. But first, I wanna finish my drawing. :) Happy Bradford with his Bubble-friend Chesta. Seriously, after six years of Chestaness in my life, I had to look for a photo of him on which he shows his flames because I wasn't sure about the colors XD Naaaah, he will forgive me. Well, he has to.

Anyways, thanks for the shouts, i love comments! Comments! Comments!

Listening to Stone Temple Pilots - No way out

I got my hands on a miracle...

I actually wanted to add some links to my sidebar but that doesn't work. Missing my laptop! D:

So, this is Chesta, and I tried to work on him in the sucky PhotoImpact 12 with a normal mouse and look how it went on! XD it looks so horrible!

Anyways... back to mah day. We talked about Mike during therapy, was kinda fun. We found out that I think it's embarrassing that Mike said that my drawing I showed him a year ago looked good. And yes, it's still embarrassing. However, he should know what's a good drawing and what's not, I don't think that it was that good and... why should it be? XD

But well, then again - it's just Mike, so I won't win a prize with that.

I'm not broke, I'm just a broken hearted man

So, this is what I'm working on currently. Nothing spectacular but I thought I post it.

This thing on his head is supposed to be a halo, I dunno if it looks like it since my mum asked me about it today, so... well. It's not done yet and...

But I'm better at drawing noses than ever before! I think I can be proud of -at least- that.

Anyways, the idea for this picture came to my mind while listening to "Rusty halo" by The Script. I love that song so much!

There's something else I got on my mind, besides some story ideas, so it's gonna be a long, long night! :D

And... I'm sorry for annoying anybody with my silly posts and my stupid, eye-cancer-causing drawings.

Before the worst...

I'm such a loser >.<

Well, Chesta and I are having a lot of fun, even without the eyes. But I will draw him some later, until then... he is blind! XD

And his head is sooooooo big! Just like Dib's!

Mum was speechless when I showed him to her, didn't expect her to but... well, it made me speechless. Oh, no, wait, it made me saying "But I can't draw."

Everybody knows this phrase and before I can say it, it's their turn to do so. Which is kinda funny, having someone saying that you can't draw, when it's not their opinion but yours.

So, another silly post but well... XD Just wanted to say that I suck and that I'm a loser.

Chesta and me, signing out.

Sometimes I don't make sense

To everybody who went to art school and everybody who goes to art school and is about to: FUCK YOU. I'm not really jealous, it's just... it only reminds me of the miserable situation I'm stuck in. If there's one thing that breaks down all the walls I built, then it's the fact that I'm too dumb to help myself.

I know what I can do to improve my skills. Well, people keep saying that my skills were good enough, but I want them to be as good as I want it, I make the measurement, not anybody else. So when I decide that my works suck, then they suck. And there's no point why I would ever stop thinking this way.

Yes, I'm pulling myself further down this hole but it's all that I can do. I've never done another thing but ruining my life. And this won't ever stop.

I know how I can work on that, how I can make things better but I don't have the patience (or maybe strength) to keep on going until I'm done.

The fact that I will have to work for another career makes it even worse. And there's no reason to start another attempt because I already failed.